i love writing. it’s one of my favorite forms of self expression. it’s when i can really focus on my thoughts. and i like writing in all lowercase.
i also like to throw things in just for kicks. for example, my business blog is titled, “a diary of one babelicious internet marketing chick…” yes, i’m a chick. yes, i’m an internet marketer. however, do i see myself as “babelicious”? not so much. well, maybe more so now than when i originally gave my blog that title over… ummm… 10 years ago. at the time, i was preggers with jroc and maybe gained… 458.3 lbs. not so babelicious, but i liked how the word looked & sounded… so i used it 
“a diary of one babelicious internet marketing chick…“
i’ve also used the term “drama queen” to describe myself elsewhere… it just “felt” so… colorful. but am i one? i don’t know… let me check how it’s defined…
drama queen – noun
a person given to often excessively emotional performances or reactions.
via merriam-webster.com
as far as i’m concerned… no. my emotions and reactions are certainly not “performances”… are you kidding me? let me get a handle on myself before sending me out to entertain anyone else. but i used the term and i’ll continue to use it for as long as i choose.
it’s interesting tho… how some people will allow these sweet nothings to upset them. “she calls herself babelicious? who does she think she is… a babe?” “i hate drama queens!!! i hate carmen!”
c’mon now…
first of all, i’ve already invested some time out of my life to briefly cover why i chose to use those particular words. second, who cares if i do!? does it cause you to earn less from your job? does it make it more difficult to reach your goals & dreams? if i were really a drama queen, would it affect how much you’re able to provide for yourself and your family? make it more difficult to climax? gain weight? snore? maybe it’s the reason why your face broke out yesterday. and those bad hair-days… totally my fault.
if what i (or anyone else for that matter) say affects you… and you *know* it’s not direct at you, maybe you should spend some “you-time” and ask yourself how it’s possible that something that has absolutely nothing to do with you, have the power to make you feel the way you do.
carmen’s a drama queen and it bothers me because… i’m dyin for attention and i don’t know how to get it. (haha…) i hate that the little b*tch refers to herself as “babelicious” because… nobody seems to mind that she does, and i so want to do the same but i’m afraid people will criticize me for doing so. (i don’t know…)
but seriously, i’m not hurting you so if stuff like this bothers you, then it’s all on you. i mean, i think you’re babelicious… and i think you deserve all the attention you want for yourself! i certainly wouldn’t hold ill thoughts over anyone for painting themselves in any way they choose.
lighten up
love,
*carmen*
the babelicious drama queen <3
